Friends

Hmm. I don't really think I'll be insulting Paris Hilton anymore from now on. I mean, everyone loves to make fun of her. She's a celebrity despite having no talent and acting like an idiot.

But really, if I had that much money, I'd take advantage of every opportunity to play around, like she has in the past. Sure, she's not a great singer or actress, but because she has the money to sing and act, and she considers it fun, I suppose, she does it. It's her right.

And I've known that all along, but between her vegetarianism and the new political video she made, I feel she's earned the right for me to treat her not with dislike, but with the apathy she deserves.

I worked my ass off to make that banner for the contest 8 months ago, and when I came to get myself registered, I saw that I didn't win. Now, I would have been completely alright with this if the winning design didn't use that SAME GODDAMN PUBLIC DOMAIN HORSE! Christ, you guys! Are you seriously that retarded to accept an unoriginal design?! That's one of the reasons I entered in the FIRST PLACE. I didn't want to see that goddamn fucking horse emblazoned on a banner! I wanted someone with a sense of creativity to show their art and have something notable for their portfolio. But instead, it goes to an uncreative jackass who used the SAME GODDAMNED HORSE and not only can show dozens of those things around the campus, but got $50 for the abomination!

You crazy sons-of-bitches.

We didn't get to Clue last weekend, so we're planning for this weekend instead. Saturday at 7:30 I think, but don't quote me. Interested parties should contact us.

Rehearsals are frustrating me to no end. I go, sit around until I come on, try and figure out what I'm supposed to be doing because our director isn't so good about making that clear, and then rinse and repeat. Yesterday I think I spend maybe half an hour "rehearsing" (which I put in quotes because it meant standing around pretending to be sleepy while the leads did their thing) and about five minutes actually doing something. I was at rehearsal for about an hour and a half. Rant over.

I've kind of applied for a part-time position at Cole. I say kind of because I haven't actually sent them anything yet, but they're already trying to set up an interview. Meanwhile I'm trying to gather up my references. If things work out, I'll be working weekends in Mt. Vernon to earn some extra cash for tuition.

My dad got accepted to Hastings, which means we're one step closer to an actual move. I think the hardest part is over.

I read an amusing article about quizzing your friends to figure out who gets an invite to your wedding and now I'm curious who knows me well enough according to their standards. If I were getting married tomorrow would you make the cut? Answer if you dare! (Comments will be screened so nobody can cheat).

1) Name the city I'm living in now.
2) Name at least two of my closest friends.
3) Name my current employer and my past employer.
4) Do I have any kids?
5) Do you know the name of my fiancé boyfriend? Bonus question: Where and when did we meet?
6) Do you know where my parents are and whether they are still alive?
7) Name at least two of my hobbies.
8) How old am I?
9) Where did I go to college?
10) Name my last boyfriend before this engagement one.

So I just went and watched the Director's Cut of Dark City. On Blu-Ray, no less.

Eff me, but that is one amazing movie. I'd hasten to say it's a masterpiece. And the changes made from the theatrical cut only increase its awesomeness exponentially. There's some really great additions made, but most importantly they REMOVED that bloody infuriating opening narration by Kiefer Sutherland that almost kills the surreal mystique of the whole flick.

So yeah. The Dark City director's cut may very well be my new favourite movie ever. It literally has everything I love crammed into its running time. The climactic fifteen minutes are the most brilliant depiction of pure chaos I've seen in any film. Augh, I love that movie.

Anyone else see the director's cut? Anybody lamenting the fact that they still own the theatrical version?

Apparently my mom used to drag race when she was younger.

My mom is awesome.

Can someone tell me when Crocs are going to go out of style? They are ugly, repulsive and need to go in the worst way. The day that they are no longer "fashionable" will be a big party day for me.

http://www.newsweek.com/id/150240/&GT1=43002 - This guy is on my side.

It's a good thing I don't live in Chicago.

Wait...



Well, it's storming out again. This time a weird as hell red circle of pus barely skimming our town.

So, as a precaution, I'm playing Sims 2 with neato mods. I really want to have Dave Generica run away a lot regardless liking his father (which I don't really enjoy) AND a whole bunch of other stuff, including a depression mod! :D

I can't say today was much better than yesterday. All this friendship drama was heavy on my mind; it was pretty much all I could think about. I cried multiple times:

-Singing the first song, "Who is Like the Lord?"
-Writing down my prayer request for healing my friendship with Tom on a card and dropping it in the offering bag.
-Pastor Robert mentioning Galatians 5:22-23. "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law."

Patience and self-control. Two things I need to work on overall, not just in my friendships.

Pastor Robert also said that living in the Spirit means living by the Word, as a true Christian. It was like he was talking to me personally--I don't tithe regularly, or care for needy people, or...quite a lot of the stuff that Jesus and His disciples said we should do. Plus I'm still looking for some way to get plugged in at church, some kind of ministry. I talked to this guy Keith and prayed with him after the service, explaining that I'm trying to find that outlet. Yet I thought the furry-ness and the stuffed animal ministry idea were both kinda embarassing, so I didn't say anything about how I might be able to serve. I didn't mention worship arts, either. Or after-service PrayerCare. I guess I just wanted to empty everything out of my cup before refilling it.

Then I came home to check FFC, and Robin said in a thread I posted about trying to become serious that I just don't have a serious personality. He said Salem just needs someone to listen to him when he's being serious, and I'm not patient enough for that yet. He did say that Salem should be patient with me, too, as I try to get stronger with this. But I don't even know if Salem wants to be "friend" friends with me. Not just acquaintances or fellow message-board members or dA co-watchers.

Shouldn't I at least try to be serious? There's a time and a purpose for everything, so I can't try to be serious all the time. Nor should I be Mr. Fun Happy Gecko all the time.

I was going to meet Mushi at Jo-Ann at 1pm today...but she never showed up. Wonder if she went to the one out at Southlands while I waited an hour and a half at the one on Expo. Or she just forgot. Or maybe she really doesn't want to make my tail; in that case I'll cancel the commission and just make the tail myself. I wish I could get that $20 deposit back, though.

Started looking for a bike on craigslist today. I might end up looking in a thrift store, though, to save even more money. Tomorrow I'm buying my last text for school as well as a buncha supplies. So feel free to call and/or text me tonight and tomorrow.

That's about it. PLEASE pray for me, or send good vibes/positivity/ju-ju my way.