Come on in Heeeeeeere!

Cats and squirrels don't mix.

2009-06-18T22:53:24Z

Our one cat, Lola, has a penchant for bringing home animals that she has caught. She offers them to us as gifts. She was a stray that we brought in, so it makes sense that she would know how to hunt for prey. She also likes to occasionally eat her gifts to us on the step right outside our front door.

Today was a bit different though. She usually brings home small to medium sized birds, chipmunks, moles, and field mice. Today, she brought with her, a squirrel. The worst part, though, was that it was still alive, barely.

I've dealt with dead animals before with my job. That's never really bothered me. I've dealt with the animals the cat has left with ease as well. But with this one, barely breathing and trying to move, really got to me.

So this was the first time I have ever killed an animal, insects not included. I had to put it out of its misery. It was the only humane thing that I could have done. I had to break its neck with a shovel. Unfortunately, on the first try, I missed the neck, and instead hit it's ribs. That look it had on its still creeps me out. After that though I did manage to hit the mark, and end the poor things pain.

The weird thing for me is that I can justify in my mind killing something if need be. If I become a cop like I hope to, I may have to shoot a rabid animal. I can justify that by saying that it posed a risk to people and animals in the community. I can even justify killing a human (something I hope I never have to do) if required, such as in a case of self defense or protecting someone. But an innocent animal needing to be put out of its misery...that really bothers me.

23

2009-03-13T14:47:11Z

Jesus Christ with a tote bag, I'm 23. My mortality is creeping up on me faster than I had previously imagined.

23 in an important age for my family. It's the age that both my brothers and my father got married. Nothing like a little pressure to make you feel good, eh?

Girlfriend

2009-01-07T04:03:44Z

My girlfriend Lindsey came up here Sunday to see me. While here, we stopped and saw my Grandmother. Later that night, she woke up crying from a nightmare. Apparently in it my Grandma, that she just met 12 hours earlier, was dying and wouldn't tell me. Instead she confided that secret to Lindsey.

We haven't even been going out for two months and she's already having dreams about my family members dying. What the hell?

More into the Family

2008-12-30T17:45:28Z

Although I already knew for about a month now, my oldest brother over the weekend broke the news to the whole family. He and his wife are having a baby this July.

Hell yeah....I'm going to be an uncle.

I'm thinking about being the uncle that teaches the kid jokes that will annoy the crap out of the parents. My uncle did that for us, and I have to pass down that tradition.

Oh those crazy ex's...

2008-10-22T20:38:31Z

Well, this kinda sucks.

My ex yesterday came to my room to drop off some vitamin C lemonade stuff, cause I've been sick recently. It's at this time that she decides to tell me that her doctor just called her, and she apparently has HPV. It's unknown how long she's had it, or who gave it to her. So now I'm freaking out, because I might have it, and may be passing it on to my new girlfriends/bed buddies.

And to make it worse, there's no real test for a guy to determine if he has it or not. The only way I could know is if lesions start to form on my manhood. And if I do have a physical exam or any test done for other diseases, it would show up on either the school bill if I don't charge the insurance. If I do charge the insurance, it's only covered 80/20, so my parents would still see the bill for it.

So, fuck.

Changes

2008-09-22T23:28:48Z

Well, according to my ex, along with some other friends here, I've apparently changed. They're saying that I'm doing things that I usually don't do. The main thing they've said is that I have found a new girlfriend-ish relatively so soon. I've known her for almost three weeks, and we as of just last week started to "go out". By that, I mean hang out, cuddle, and some kissing. They're comparing this to last year, where it took nearly three months for this to happen.

So am I really different? I've been taking ADD medicine, starting a couple months ago, so maybe that may be a factor? I'm at 40mg, but that may be too much.

So people that talk to me, have I changed?

The Commish

2008-06-15T23:27:45Z

Hey, arty people, I need your help. I need a Strong Bad mask. Like, an actual, legitimate lucha mask, painted or sewn or whatever to match Strong Bad's face. I'm planning to go to a con as Strong Bad. I will pay for the materials and labor. Please respond if you can help, or can direct me to someone that can help me. Thanks.

Old

2008-03-13T23:55:39Z

I turned 22 today.

I'm officially old.

Animu...

2008-01-14T04:33:26Z

I've been thinking about something...

There's an anime convention later this year. I'm looking for a unique and hilarious costume to cosplay as.

So far all I've got are Bert from Sesame Street, Chris Hansen from To Catch a Predator (with chatlog), and Pool's Closed.

Does anyone else have any ideas?

There's too many idiots allowed to talk

2007-07-26T00:54:23Z

OK, I'm compromising a list of people that really need to shut the hell up. You mind helping me out?

So far I got :

Jack Thompson
Pat Robertson
Ted Stevens
Scientology
Colin Cowherd
Rush Limbaugh
Fred Phelps
The creator of "Mallard Fillmore"

Yeah, that's all I can think of now...

The best and worst day ever

2007-07-19T23:33:53Z

Yesterday was the day I feared, and yet, it was also a day I always wanted to see. Yesterday we had to put down our Dog, Tippy. She was 12, and she wasn't doing good at all. She could barely walk, couldn't hold her, err...digestive movements, and was a shell of her past self. I knew it was her time, but yet I didn't want it to happen.

About 5 hours after that though, our cat that we adopted from the streets, Lola, gave birth to five little kittens. My goal is to try to convince my Dad to keep one of them.

Analisa?

2007-05-31T00:47:17Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBFn9Pkcj6A

Epic win.

By the way, how do I post videos on my LJ?

I hope she gets shived...

2007-05-09T15:19:48Z

You know who's really getting under my skin? Paris Hilton and all her fans. She thinks she's above the law, and can do as she pleases. She was caught driving while intoxicated. She was sentenced to probation. She violated her probation contract, so naturally she should serve her time in jail. If I did that, I would be in the same situation. How is it different? Being rich and famous doesn't mean you can do what you want.

And now I read that her fans are petitioning the Govenator to pardon her. If he does, it will be a slap to the face of the criminal justice system.

You know, maybe the 45 days in jail will do her some good. Maybe she'll realize to at least wear some dang panties if she's going to go to any clubs. Freaking skank.

Yeah, i'm probably an idiot

2007-05-07T02:04:05Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p86KvYkmLiM

support my habit.

On the subject of Mr. Thompson

2007-04-17T04:09:29Z

OK, it's official.

After talking to Dids about this, I think I might actually have to do it.

The next time Jack Thompson gives another one of his BS propaganda "speeches" on National television, I'm going to run up and kick him in his man spot. I'm pretty sure I'd be praised for that.

21 years ago today...

2007-03-13T05:56:11Z

A great thing happened. No, not that.

Not that either.

My Birthday? Nope, not that....

But it is my Birthday though. 21 years alive. Somehow.

But you know what this means, right?

I'm going to be milking the day for all it's got!

Lent

2007-02-19T03:17:56Z

Well, Lent is fast approaching. For me, that means more customers at work. It sucks.

But other than that, there's the Lenten Promises. What are yours? Mine? Well, I believe that if it's bad enough to give up for Lent, it should be good enough to give up forever. That's why Soda on my list of things to quit. Out of everything, that's going to be the hardest. Drugs, alcohol, tobacco, those are easy man. Soda? Damn, I can't live without my Dr. Pepper. Who knew being straight edge would be so hard?

Valentines Day

2007-02-14T04:28:54Z

Well, it's tomorrow. I do have an idea though. Since because money;s a bit tight around now, I was thinking of sending a bit smaller to DG. A phonecard, with my Cell # on it. That was we can talk to each other, instead of IMing each other. You think it'll work?

Dang...

2007-02-13T05:33:44Z

I just realized, my 21st Birthday is a month away. It's not that important to me though. I don't drink alcohol anymore, nor will I ever. Alcoholism runs in my family, but luckily it skipped my parents and brothers. I don't want it to happen to me. Nip it in the bud.

Dance

2007-01-22T04:07:37Z

2 hours.

1 degree Fahrenheit.

Frostbite.

Wii.

It's all mine baby! But I'm having trouble with the internet. I updated it, and read the user guide, but now it won't connect. I think I may have to just connect straight to my router. The only problem is that my router doesn't have a USB cord on it. Any advice?

Freaking yeah

2007-01-09T06:19:08Z

So I got a DS Lite today....and it is of the awesome. Why I didn't get it earlier, I'll never know. Screw the football game, I played my DS all night.

So far, 2007 sucks.

2007-01-01T08:31:44Z

Why is it that everyone out there seems to be better than me? I don't mean "Oh, he's better at hockey than I am" type of thing, I mean "He's freaking better at me at everything." type of thing. I apparently be really good at being the worst. I'm the suckiest man alive. Not quite the thing I'd like to be known about, eh?

It just seems like everything I try to do, it's either not good enough, or someone will came along and be better. That's why for a while I hated my older brothers, because I had the impossible task of trying to be more successful than they.

For her.

2006-12-19T07:08:54Z

Because of her.

Because of her my life has changed.

Because of her my life is better.

Because of her my life will never be the same, and I've never been happier.

Because of her I quit one thing, and because of her I didn't quit another.

Because of her I quit smoking, and it feels great.

Because of her I didn't go through with something, something that could never have been reversed.

Because of her I feel the happiest when I think of her, and sad when she's not there.

Because of her I felt the best when I saw her, and would give up everything to see her again.

Because of her I finally feel loved, something that I haven't felt in a long while.

Because of you Courtney, I feel like I have a reason to be here, to be alive.

Thank you Courtney, for everything you have done. For being there when I needed your help.

Merry Christmas Courtney. I love you.

Subway

2006-11-19T23:51:01Z

Apparently, I'm cute the second I walk into Subway. One of the girls that works there gave me her number, and we're going out for lunch on Wednesday. And she was one that brought up the idea, not me.

Oh, and I saw a Wii at Best Buy today. I sooooooo want one. I was staring at it for literally 5 minutes without blinking. It's so....beautiful.

Long time, eh?

2006-11-16T18:48:52Z

Yeah, it's been a while since I posted, eh? Well, I've had some major things came up recently. My cousin, who is like a sister to me, tried to commit suicide a couple weeks ago. It tore me up inside, because she was always there for me when I needed help, but wen she was hurting, she never showed it, so I never had the chance to help her.

So that's what has been taking up a lot of my time. For now, all I can do is stand by her and pray for her.